So I tried some new medicine to get some sleep.  It did not work out so well.  I use to be able to take a tylenol and it would wipe me out.  Now I am doing good to get 6 hours of sleep, with prescribed medication.  I only slept three hours and now I sit here wide awake.  What does a person do at 2 am?  Thought about reading, but if I become to interested then I wont be able to go back to sleep.  What does a person going through such heartache do when they are alone?  Being alone and trying to sleep have been the hardest things I have dealt with since my vacation.  Part of me really wants to leave here for a while.  I hope moving away will help, but I also know that no matter where I go I am going to be alone.  The feeling of being alone is ripping me apart inside.  I have God, a supportive family and the best friends in the world.  Why do I still suffer?  I have so many good things around me, but yet I am searching for that numb button.  How is it that someone can hurt us more than we know what to do with, and yet our heart still yearns for them.